Engaging and excitement

I wonder how excited one can be?


Last Sunday me and my common-law husband got engaged. How sweet. He proposed me and although we've talked about getting engaged long ago, I didn't see it coming till' the very moment he asked me.

It was a Sunday morning or well, it was some time past noon. We still hadn't gotten out of bed so we were there, naked, laying next to each other (Hope this isn't too much information) when he told me he would like to propose something. He was grinning at me for quite awhile and I still couldn't figure out his intentions.

Saying yes wasn't a tough choice! There was no such thing as a reason, excuse or doubt hinting me not to get engaged to this unique wonderfull creature. It felt right and natural, sort of like the next step to take, after living together for over a year.

We made a heavy breakfast, eggs and bacon, and started calling our parents and siblings. Some of them surprised, some of them announced right away they had seen it coming but all very happy for us.

When we updated our relationship status on Facebook, things got wild: I got about 78 likes and 30-something comments from different people. I still feel quilt for not giving my grandpa a call about this fresh major event. He has met Keijo only once due to the long distance but really likes him and wishes all the best for us so I don't really know why I'm so nervous.

About the rings: we still don't have them. I had guided Keijo long ago that if he ever wishes to propose me he should do that without the rings, because I believe in traditions and I'm an optimist in believing that I will only marry once and therefore only have one engagement ring and one wedding ring so I want to choose them myself and make sure I love them. Maybe this sounds stupid and superficial to some but anyways this is our way.

So on Monday we went to choose the rings and made the orders for them already. We went to into several jewellery stores but the ones we fell in love with were found in the first one. We had agreed to give up on cohesion if we find unmatching rings but finally, the design in the two rings verified to be the same. The rings have been designed by a local goldsmith and the name is "Puro" (=Stream). I chose white gold (to fit my future diamond ring) and Keijo got a bit wider version of the same ring with both white gold and yellow gold. The rings should be here in about a week's time and when they get here, I WILL share some photos of them here. =)

Anything else? Well if I forgot anything crucial or any questions rose, please comment. :)

Keijo knows best

Long time since the last time I did any writing here but I'm not going to try to cater any excuses.. I've been wondering what do I wish to share on my blog.. So far I've mostly shared some of my own poems and although I still see myself as a "poet" I'll make my blog more "bloggish" from this day on.. I've struggled alot with questions such as 'How intimate could I get?' and 'What if the people I actually know would see this?' But I've decided to write about the everyday and what that means in the context of my life as a student.
About the intimacy.. Well, I guess Keijo and my parents know best or my parents second-best. But probably my poems reveal and conceal in a good-enough ratio in the future as well.. I've read some of my real-life friends' blogs every now and then and I always find myself amazed how amazing they can be while I'm wondering if I would want them to find my blog.. I still don't get why I'm so reserved.. :S

Updating..

I'm sorry my writings have been lately in Finnish and this post will include a Finnish poem as well. For my English readers I can say there are some English texts coming soon =] But for the time being please check out The Delgados and Satellite Stories. The two bands that have inspired me a lot recently =]

Here goes:

Lähtevätkö tahrat sielusta pesemällä niinkuin vaatteista saippualla,
pyyhkiytyvätkö muistot puhtaiksi niinkuin ontot pöydät hankaamalla,
vai luulinko niin vain siksi kunnes arpeutuneet haavani puhkesivat taas vuotamaan?

Rosa~

Yksi monista öistä

Kuristun syviin, pimeisiin käytäviin,
Joita kotimme pitää siipiensä suojassa.
Ennen niin suojaisa puutarha tuntuu enää antavan suojaa vain rikkaruohoille,
Vaivaaville painajaisilleni.
Ennen niin autio, odottava ruokala kantaa ympärilleen öisin kalpeaa valoa,
Edesmennyttä odotuksen kaikua.
Pimeys tulee kitkeä ja rikkaruohot valjastaa kasvamaan siellä,
Missä ne eivät ole rikkaruohoja.
Entä sitten,
Kun rauhattomuuteni kumpuaa asioista,
Jotka eivät ole ulottuvillani,
Kun en voi sammuttaa ruokalan valoja?

"Thank You"

Some quotes I've recently bumped into and couldn't agree more with them. Beware! They're in Finnish :)

Jos ainut rukous, jonka elämässäsi lausut, on "kiitos", se riittänee. - Eckhardt

Kuoleminen alkoi syntyessäni. - Jan Maerlant

~Rosa

This is what I came up with tonight

A strangling grip,
a choke hold,
there's no point in fighting back no more.
The pale red eyes gazing,
their shades changing,
I see doubt,
and not only on my soon-to-be cold lips.
This is where they always doubt,
where they sense the fear is brushing over,
and it's certainly not me,
not this time.
Faint,
and they'll break,
a burst of screams.
How theatrical is this,
killing an old man?

One more sunny day

Today is the day but not for me though. Today is the day for my boyfriend. We're driving all the way to Oulu to get his new motor cycle.

Before that I'm enjoying my paid day off from work in the sun while he's at work sweating (oh schadenfreude). It's 114F / 46C in the sun and I'm going to sunbathe all day now that I can (that I don't have to sweat at the office).

Some music for the sunny day in Finland! :
Noisettes - Never Forget You
Noisettes - Don't upset the rythm
Lykke Li - I'm good I'm gone
Nouvelle Vague - Dance with me
Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Maps

Love, Rosa